Archive for the 'Personal' Category

Shell

Friday, September 23rd, 2011

There are no words To describe how I feel, My staggering need To burst from the shell I’ve made, or that’s been made By the world, to contain All the dreams that Struggle to break Free, to escape, To be real, To take on a shape, And find a mind Other than mine To steal.

Angry

Friday, January 14th, 2011

I’m angry at you For not being able to see inside my head; I’m angry at myself For not knowing how to show what can’t be said. So very angry That my veneer conceals too much, That it obscures what’s underneath. I’m angry, bursting To expose and let you find What you won’t take the [...]

Desperate

Sunday, November 14th, 2010

Hear The desperate call, Hear The desperate cry; See The longing look, See The downcast eye. Hear The silent whisper, Hear The wretched sigh; Feel The aching hunger, See How much he tries; Tries And tries again, But seems always to go wrong. So desperate to find love… Strange That hope can burn so long.

Earning the Darkness

Saturday, March 13th, 2010

Lost in the light, With no one there to see; Then shadows come, And darkness sets me free. Free to retreat, To find that place inside, Where worlds are made To hide the world outside: A world too bright, Too real to comprehend; The dreams preserve The peace of just-pretend. But morning waits, Awaits my [...]

Inside

Thursday, October 29th, 2009

Screaming inside; There’s no one who hears. Aching inside, For too many years. Frustration, inside; There’s no one who sees. Desperation, inside, The frantic disease. Inside, all inside; Appearing unstirred. Untroubled, outside; The tempest unheard.

Lost Again

Monday, October 5th, 2009

I’m finding myself, There I am; then lost again. Where should I look now?

Cupid’s Lovesick Freak

Friday, September 18th, 2009

Do you see the desperation in my eyes? Is that why you’re waving good-bye When I’ve hardly had time to say hello? Do you hear the longing in my words? Is that why you seem so deterred When I’ve barely had time to speak? What is it you see? What is it you hear? Won’t [...]

No Longer a Choice

Tuesday, August 11th, 2009

Where did the time go; Where is the me of yesterday? Where did my dreams go, And why am I here today? How did I get here And can I go back? The future’s not clear; My vision’s gone black. Dare I go on, Must I keep to this course? Is the past really gone, [...]

Let Light Invade

Monday, July 13th, 2009

Let light invade, And drive the darkness all away; Let confidence come, And then tear self-doubt to shreds. Let sadness fade, And let not happiness be prey Nor hope succumb To life’s many fickle threads. Let anger go, And cast out suspicion too; Let fear escape, With despair as well to follow. Let power flow, [...]

Always the Wall

Wednesday, July 1st, 2009

Taking down a wall That will not go away; Grows stronger still and rises high, A little more each day. Breaking down the wall That just won’t go away; Chip here and there, but though I try, The wall seems set to stay. It hides my mind, conceals my soul, And yet how I long [...]

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