Screaming inside;
There’s no one who hears.
Aching inside,
For too many years.
Frustration, inside;
There’s no one who sees.
Desperation, inside,
The frantic disease.
Inside, all inside;
Appearing unstirred.
Untroubled, outside;
The tempest unheard.
I’m finding myself,
There I am; then lost again.
Where should I look now?
Do you see the desperation in my eyes?
Is that why you’re waving good-bye
When I’ve hardly had time to say hello?
Do you hear the longing in my words?
Is that why you seem so deterred
When I’ve barely had time to speak?
What is it you see?
What is it you hear?
Won’t you please tell me?
Be sincere, no, severe!
I’ll change, [...]
Where did the time go;
Where is the me of yesterday?
Where did my dreams go,
And why am I here today?
How did I get here
And can I go back?
The future’s not clear;
My vision’s gone black.
Dare I go on,
Must I keep to this course?
Is the past really gone,
Am I cut off from my source?
No longer a choice,
The path [...]
Let light invade,
And drive the darkness all away;
Let confidence come,
And then tear self-doubt to shreds.
Let sadness fade,
And let not happiness be prey
Nor hope succumb
To life’s many fickle threads.
Let anger go,
And cast out suspicion too;
Let fear escape,
With despair as well to follow.
Let power flow,
To fight all existence through;
And let courage find shape
In a heart no longer [...]
Taking down a wall
That will not go away;
Grows stronger still and rises high,
A little more each day.
Breaking down the wall
That just won’t go away;
Chip here and there, but though I try,
The wall seems set to stay.
It hides my mind, conceals my soul,
And yet how I long to show
The world who I really am;
Bask in recognition’s [...]
I know this will wind up being a very short blog post (especially for me), but then, there’s a lot going on: a move is a big thing, after all. But I’m no longer scared. I’m excited.
Sure, there are a lot of uncertainties, but I’ll try to just take them as they come.
And above all, [...]
I’m scared.
What I should be is asleep, but it seems my fears are getting the better of me, and perhaps what I need most right now is to express those fears, to use someone – or something – as a sounding board, to hear the echoes of my thoughts in the hopes that maybe I’ll [...]
The fire dies,
The spark has gone,
The embers lose their glow;
The soul gives in,
The mind gives up,
The heart begins to slow.
But Death is not
The culprit, no,
It’s hope that’s burned away
And with its loss
The self endures
The same kind of decay.
The light will fade,
The warmth will cease;
One difference, though, it’s true,
That with the glint
Of future love
The flame might [...]
Funny thing about the Internet: it’s often a double-edged sword, at least when it comes to using it to feel “connected” to the world at large. It can bring you closer to people and allow you to feel like part of a community, or it can cut you down and make you feel like you’re [...]