Sticky Thoughts

Gotta go forward;
I don’t know where I’ll end up,
But here goes nothing…

Screaming inside;
There’s no one who hears.
Aching inside,
For too many years.
Frustration, inside;
There’s no one who sees.
Desperation, inside,
The frantic disease.
Inside, all inside;
Appearing unstirred.
Untroubled, outside;
The tempest unheard.

Take me out unto the day,
Take me from this night;
Drown the moon,
Set sun alight,
And take me far away.
Play me then a merry tune,
Play me from my woes;
Banish mind,
My thoughts compose,
And play my afternoon.
Hide me now, and keep me blind!
Hide me from the truth:
Darkness comes,
Devours my youth;
Oh, hide me here, enshrined.
Still moon moves and sun succumbs,
Melodies [...]

I’m finding myself,
There I am; then lost again.
Where should I look now?

Same thing,
Same thing
Every day;
No change,
No change
In work or play.
Steady,
Stagnant,
Tame decay;
Tired,
Familiar,
Life as cliche.
Uncommon,
Different,
Something new;
Defiant,
Disturbed,
Contrary few.
Surprise,
Confound,
Avoid routine;
Live life
As human,
Not as machine.

Do you see the desperation in my eyes?
Is that why you’re waving good-bye
When I’ve hardly had time to say hello?
Do you hear the longing in my words?
Is that why you seem so deterred
When I’ve barely had time to speak?
What is it you see?
What is it you hear?
Won’t you please tell me?
Be sincere, no, severe!
I’ll change, [...]

Where did the time go;
Where is the me of yesterday?
Where did my dreams go,
And why am I here today?
How did I get here
And can I go back?
The future’s not clear;
My vision’s gone black.
Dare I go on,
Must I keep to this course?
Is the past really gone,
Am I cut off from my source?
No longer a choice,
The path [...]

Let light invade,
And drive the darkness all away;
Let confidence come,
And then tear self-doubt to shreds.
Let sadness fade,
And let not happiness be prey
Nor hope succumb
To life’s many fickle threads.
Let anger go,
And cast out suspicion too;
Let fear escape,
With despair as well to follow.
Let power flow,
To fight all existence through;
And let courage find shape
In a heart no longer [...]

Taking down a wall
That will not go away;
Grows stronger still and rises high,
A little more each day.
Breaking down the wall
That just won’t go away;
Chip here and there, but though I try,
The wall seems set to stay.
It hides my mind, conceals my soul,
And yet how I long to show
The world who I really am;
Bask in recognition’s [...]

The fire dies,
The spark has gone,
The embers lose their glow;
The soul gives in,
The mind gives up,
The heart begins to slow.
But Death is not
The culprit, no,
It’s hope that’s burned away
And with its loss
The self endures
The same kind of decay.
The light will fade,
The warmth will cease;
One difference, though, it’s true,
That with the glint
Of future love
The flame might [...]